Well my soul checked out missing as I sat listening...

.... To the hours and minutes tickin away
Yeah, just sittin around waitin for my life to begin
While it was all just slippin away.

Those four lines really made me think... I've felt really sad today, sad an tired. And I haven't really had a clue why. Nothing's happened, well nothing major anyway, nothing that would make me feel like this. I had a blast last night, I'm going to see Green Day in two days, I'm hopefully meeting up with Maddie on tuesday, I'm going to London! in 4 days, with Rikke and Tonje. My birthday is coming up and in 25 days time I'm going to visit Trine in Bergen! I should be overjoyed! I should be excited as hell. I should have that well known feeling of butterflies in my tummy. But no, nothing. Not today.  Buut I think I know the answer now.

Im tired of waitin for tomorrow to come
Or that train to come roarin round the bend.

I'll probably feel better tomorrow, and then on Monday my life begins. When I'm back from London I'm going to put a bigger effort into getting a job. Stop being so hard on myself, the main reason I struggle with applying for jobs is because you have to brag about all your abilities in that stupid job application thing. I don't feel like I'm good enough for any of the jobs. You need to have this and that and blah blah blah. ugh. But no that's gotta change! I am getting a job! And I need to start making some more music, melodies, lyrics. I hope Rikke calls her awesome uncle with the recording studio soon. It's much easier to get things done if you have a kinda deadline for it. And theen after we've recorded some songs, we'll see what happens. I just need to make some progress soon, or else I'll be stuck in this wasting my life away on nothing misery for ever.

Theres better days shining through