And I, I get on the train on my own, and my tired radio keeps playing tired songs...

I'm feeling awful today, my head hurts like hell, and yes i know sitting by the computer won't make it better but I'm tired of just lying in bed trying to sleep. and I also feel extremely lonely for some reason, and really sad and tired. And I have no idea why. Nothing special has happened or anything. I'm usually a happy person, even though it might not seem like it if you read all my emo blog posts on here. But it's just much easier to blog about things that bothers me then writing about everything that doesn't. I feel like I'm complaining way to much. Next time I'll post something it's gonna be about something cheerful and nice. I promise. Maybe i should change my layout as well because it's pretty dull and dark and pretty sad really.. I need some colours! spring is on it's way and all, the football season has started, I've got lots of great friends, I'm going to see McFly in just over a month, easter holiday in a two weeks time. I should be thrilled and happy. But I'm not, maybe I'm just having a bad day. and maybe i feel lonely because I haven't really talked much today, and the only person I've been around is my mom. I probably seem like a shy girl that prefers to quite and be alone to most people, but I'm really quite opposite. While others love sitting in alone watching a movie I prefer watching a movie with someone. It's always much more fun to do something as long as your with someone. Just sitting on the ground staring at the sky is much better when you're not alone. But well i don't care how you people think I am. To judge someone before you know them properly is just lame! My friends know how I am and they know I'm a person who loves to be around people and loves to have a laugh, I'm also Maddie's personal laughing machine, so according to her I'm also really funny. boyah! Buut when I'm around a bunch of people I don't know very well or don't know at all I get shy. irritating I tell you! I'm like schizophrenic or something. If I could have it my way I would meet and get to know one person at the time. And when I know that person well enough I could start getting to know a new one lol. I'm weird I know, I blame all the bullies for making become like this. that was a weird sentence i think... oh well. So if anyone wondered if I'm always quiet and boring then no(: I can be very loud... just stand with me on a football match and you'll see, I mean hear. I am lying a bit actually, if I meet a new person I'm shy even though it's just one guy/girl. But if it's just like the two of us then you just have to talk, so it won't get awkward. so yeah that's the easiest way for me to get to know people, be with them alone and have to force myself to talk. haha what a freak I am! oh well I'm feeling abit better now actually, I've been laughing a bit to myself because of my own shyness. and you want to know something embarrassing?!? I have a poster of the pussycat dolls on my wall! I can't get rid of it because then I have to remove 7 small cutouts i have from mags and two posters... well I caan get rid of it but I can't be arsed. I hope to get a new a4 sized mcfly poster so i can put that up on top of it.
Now I got to get working on my new more cheerful layout! I'll come back with a happy post next time.
Cos I'm not alooonee, nonononoooo
I'm not aloooone